Why not two, three, even four? I thought I month would be enough to set me at rest with everything related to school; turned out it wasn't.

I still have essays to finish; grades to be worried about; exams on which I must get excellent grades; homework that I must do on a daily basis. Being a geek can really suck sometimes.

And when a geek like me doesn't want to go back to school, you can be sure that something is very, very wrong.

"- I have to go to college.
- Why?
- Because it's what you do after high school. - Shaun and Cindy, Orange County.

Sometimes I ask myself whether things would be better if that was the only reason I had to go college; if I simply didn't care about it. But thoughts like those last for only a moment; a second later I'm already thinking about how amazing logarithms are and how brilliant were the Romans. Thirst for knowledge is what keeps me going, and I thank whoever is up there that I was born like this.

Need college right now, more than I ever. I'm tired, honestly tired of high school; I can't go back; a month was not enough... simply not enough.

"- Why a month?
- Because it's long enough to be meaningful, but short enough to stay out of trouble." - Nelson and Sara, Sweet November.

July was weird; bizarre; mind-boggling... but a good month, a very good month. I sincerely thank all of those that were with me during it; that made me laugh, have fun and forget what I was going back to and just how short a month can be.

*sighs*

Wake me up when November ends.

"True love lasts a lifetime." - Karen, Love Actually.

"Life is full of interruptions and complications." - Karl, Love Actually.

"Basically, you're fucked, aren't you?" - Daniel, Love Actually.

"Oh, God. I am so in the wrong. The classic fool." - Harry, Love Actually.

"I'm sure she's unique and extraordinary, but... the general wisdom is that, in the end, there isn't just one person for each of us." - Daniel, Love Actually.

"Of course it's unfair. We're women. Our choices are never easy." - Ruth, Titanic.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be love loved in return." - Christian, Moulin Rouge.

"Past the point of no return - no going back now." - Phantom, The Phantom of the Opera.

"It just can never, ever, forever be." - Tori, Lost and Delirious

"Shall I abide in this dull world which in her abscence is no better than a sty? - Paulie, Lost and Delirious.

"This will hurt." - Dan, Closer.

"I was scared." - Anna, Closer

"Always the years between us, always the years, always the love, always... the hours." - Virginia Woolf, The Hours.

"I don't know what's happening to me. I seem to be unraveling. - Clarissa Vaughn, The Hours

"It is a truth universally acknowledged that when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces." - Bridget, Bridget Jones' Diary

"- I wish you had stayed.
- I wish I had stayed too. I swear to God I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish... I wish I had stayed.
- Joel? What if you stayed this time?
- I walked out.
- Come back and make up a goodbye at least. Pretend we had one. - Clementine and Joel, The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind.

"Sand is overrated. It's just tiny, little rocks." - Joel, The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind.

"Blessed are the forgetful, for they get the better even of their blunders." - Mary, The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind.

"I still thought you were going to save me. Even after that." - Joel, The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind.

"I can't remember anything without you." - Joel, The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind.

"But you will, and I'll get bored with you and feel trapped, because that's what happens with me." - Clementine, The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind.

"I don't think two people could have been happier than we've been." - Richard Brown, The Hours

"Alone for the first time again. Naturally." - Jamie, Love Actually

I'm sorry to depend on quotes. But words are simply missing.

"Why isn't love enough? - Alice, Closer.

And so are answers.

The last two weeks like Christy said a while ago seemed to be composed exclusively by Thursdays. And I definitely never could get the hang of Thursdays.

It's been a while since I've last posted and I'm glad to say that my lungs are still inhaling oxygen and exhaling carbon dioxide.

I've been extremely emo and stressed lately; with a lot of big and little problems that mix together that make me break down over the tiniest things. So, if I was for any reason stupid, rude or seemed distant, I apologize. I think that I'll only be myself again once classes are over (which will be a very heavy weight lifted off by back).

About school: Managed to make what was due today even though I've barely slept in order to do so. Still have a lot of other stuff, though. At least Caesar postponed his essay. But my stupid History teacher told us to make an essay on Christianity. Not as big as the Neo-liberalism one, but still. ¬¬

-> Philosophy essay on the Scientific Revolution (27/06).
-> History of Art essay on Christian art (28/06).
-> Study for Biology exam (22/06).
-> Study for French exam (23/06).
-> History essay on Christianity (30/06).
-> Logs exercises (25/06).

*sighs* I'll live. Hopefully.

Have you ever been really thirsty, and you open a carton of milk and you pour it into your mouth and it's... sour? - Mary Bradford, Lost and Delirious.

Really do hope that I won't have to complete that sentence.