So this year I had the privilege of making my mandatory Gay Pride Parade post at Rachel's amazing blog, Riogringa.com.

Rachel is a New Yorker who started blogging on her impressions of her experience here in Brazil, where she lived for a couple of years. I've started reading her blog after christycorr referenced it somewhere, and have since become a huge fan. Funnily enough I didn't get to meet her in person while she was still in Rio, but only after she moved back to New York, and I myself was there. Her insights on Brazilian culture, politics and history are particularly impressive, and her comparisons with the "American Dream" lifestyle are an eye-opener, and often pretty amusing (though sometimes it gets me a little more worried about Brazil than I usually am).

So check out my guest post here! Hope y'all enjoy it. *grins*

ETA: On a completely unrelated note, I have two new invite codes for Dreamwidth! Anyone interested please raise your hand in comments.

I've spent the last three days at my grandmother's house in a really small town called Ituverava. When I was a kid, I used to stay here for a couple of weeks during summer vacations, and enjoyed it very much. Despite the fact that I always had knack for staying home on a sunny day, spending a few weeks at Ituverava, diving in the pool, climbing trees, renting movies, playing video games, and reading under a shade always managed to cheer me up.

However, when one grows up one realises the several problems that are usually attached to the quiet life of the countryside. Two years ago, when I stayed here for three weeks straight, I realised the depth of the homophobia, the racism, and the narrow mentality that infests most of the people who were born and raised in small towns. I'm definitely not saying they're all like that. Unfortunately I found out my grandmother is very much the stereotype.

Two situations specifically annoyed me this time.

In the first one, we were in the car and she asked me what was my boyfriend's name. I said I didn't have a boyfriend. Then—on an unexpected twist—she asked me what was my girlfriend's name. I figured I could right then and there make someone up just to come out of the closet and be done with that. But I chickened out. Not only I don't have a girlfriend at the moment; I really didn't want to hurt my grandparents. And having a gay granddaughter, for them, actually seems like the end of the world. So I said I didn't have a girlfriend. She then said that it was absurd for a twenty year old girl not be in a relationship. I refrained from commenting.

Later that night we were watching television and there was a story about a lesbian couple that was adopting twins. My grandmother loudly disapproved. A few minutes later she asked me how many boyfriends I previously had, and whether they were handsome. I pointedly said I wasn't going to comment on the subject and asked her to drop it. She wasn't happy. She proceeded to go on and on about my cousin's ex-girlfriend, whom she considered to be the perfect daughter-in-law since she could cook, bake, and sew. Needless to say left the table as soon as etiquette allowed me.

Now, I know I'm a spoiled brat, that I was raised by the most comprehensive, caring, open-minded parents in the World, and consequentially suffered very little prejudice from my own family. Even my maternal grandparents have always approved of my girlfriends, asked after them, invited them to all the parties, and made them feel welcome. I know that's not what usually happens, and I know there are queer people out there who have to endure so much more than I do.

But I still think I have every right to complain. We cannot accept this sort of behavior from the very people who are supposed to love us for who we are. Being prejudiced against by your own family is so oppressing that even I, who have been out and about since I was fourteen, can't find it in me to tell them the truth, or to stand up for what I believe in. The last time I felt like this I had a nervous breakdown. This time, I've spent only three days here and am already going crazy. One thing is for sure, though: I'm not coming here again without my father and my stepmother to back me up. I just can't do it alone.

I've spent the last three days at my grandmother's house in a really small town called Ituverava. When I was a kid, I used to stay here for a couple of weeks during summer vacations, and enjoyed it very much. Despite the fact that I always had knack for staying home on a sunny day, spending a few weeks at Ituverava, diving in the pool, climbing trees, renting movies, playing video games, and reading under a shade always managed to cheer me up.

However, when one grows up one realises the several problems that are usually attached to the quiet life of the countryside. Two years ago, when I stayed here for three weeks straight, I realised the depth of the homophobia, the racism, and the narrow mentality that infests most of the people who were born and raised in small towns. I'm definitely not saying they're all like that. Unfortunately I found out my grandmother is very much the stereotype.

Two situations specifically annoyed me this time.

In the first one, we were in the car and she asked me what was my boyfriend's name. I said I didn't have a boyfriend. Then—on an unexpected twist—she asked me what was my girlfriend's name. I figured I could right then and there make someone up just to come out of the closet and be done with that. But I chickened out. Not only I don't have a girlfriend at the moment; I really didn't want to hurt my grandparents. And having a gay granddaughter, for them, actually seems like the end of the world. So I said I didn't have a girlfriend. She then said that it was absurd for a twenty year old girl not be in a relationship. I refrained from commenting.

Later that night we were watching television and there was a story about a lesbian couple that was adopting twins. My grandmother loudly disapproved. A few minutes later she asked me how many boyfriends I previously had, and whether they were handsome. I pointedly said I wasn't going to comment on the subject and asked her to drop it. She wasn't happy. She proceeded to go on and on about my cousin's ex-girlfriend, whom she considered to be the perfect daughter-in-law since she could cook, bake, and sew. Needless to say left the table as soon as etiquette allowed me.

Now, I know I'm a spoiled brat, that I was raised by the most comprehensive, caring, open-minded parents in the World, and consequentially suffered very little prejudice from my own family. Even my maternal grandparents have always approved of my girlfriends, asked after them, invited them to all the parties, and made them feel welcome. I know that's not what usually happens, and I know there are queer people out there who have to endure so much more than I do.

But I still think I have every right to complain. We cannot accept this sort of behavior from the very people who are supposed to love us for who we are. Being prejudiced against by your own family is so oppressing that even I, who have been out and about since I was fourteen, can't find it in me to tell them the truth, or to stand up for what I believe in. The last time I felt like this I had a nervous breakdown. This time, I've spent only three days here and am already going crazy. One thing is for sure, though: I'm not coming here again without my father and my stepmother to back me up. I just can't do it alone.

So Happy National Coming Out Day!

I know it's only in the US, but, right now, I'm making it official in Brazil. o/

I believe that christycorr managed to sum it up for me. So, do take a look at her post on the matter.

It's been... two years now since I first told my mother I was bisexual. I've changed a lot during this time, I've grown, I've acquired new friends, I've taken care of old ones... And yet my mother and my father have always and in every way respected me, especially on this matter. They've always backed me up, asked me about my girlfriends without budding in, taken care of me, given me good advice, been understanding, been, above all things, the best parents I could ask for.

Of course they're not perfect. But, they're very close from it.

Few people know what I have been going through, since I was thirteen, when it comes to other people's parents. Fewer people know what my girlfriends and friends had to endure. I just hope that everyone will start to be more conscious and get out of the narrow-minded world they live in. The day will yet come when gay people will be able to kiss in public shamelessly, without reproachaable looks or getting kicked out of places for doing so, get married, form a family, and be accepted.

We - Brazil in particular - are still crawling when it comes to that. A lot of obstacles are yet to come, and they won't be easy. My parents are my greatest example that changing is possible. And I couldn't be more proud of them.

"- You a little jumpy today Stein?
- No.
- You got a hot date?
- No.
- Yeah. Who's the guy?
- There's no guy.
- Oh come on, you're a terrible, terrible liar.
- Trust me, there's no guy." - Josh and Jessica, Kissing Jessica Stein.

Ps: and long live Metrobius. o/