October 9th, 2004
- I would doubt it if I was you too."
"- I hate my human side... I hate it. I hate to show it to people. I hate to be weak. But I can't hyde it from you.
- It's always the best to say the truth. To be sincere. Even if it hurts."
"- You two look so much alike... So much. I get confused... I get paranoid and crazy.
- I have a connection with her, I guess. I feel a lot of things that she feels. Most people don't believe, but it's true. It really weird.
- I believe it. Though I had doubts, I have always believed this. You know that."
"Sometimes... I can feel exactly what she is feeling. So, when you are sad, and talk to me about it, I believe she senses too, and that's why she is always there at the right time."
"- I feel terrible when you cry over her, and I can't do a thing to help. If I could, I swear I would give her to you. But you are so far away. So far away. And there's nothing I can do about it.
- No one can do anything about it."
"- I don't want you to think I don't believe and trust in you anymore because of this. This was just a moment of weakness... I don't know why this happened, and I'm really sorry. I'm really sorry.
- It's Ok. I forgive you. It's your right to doubt something I say.
- But that not the point! The point is: I love you, I trust you and believe in you, so I shouldn't doubt it! I hate myself for it. I just feel like slicing my wrists everytime I think you are fooling me.
- I can't lie to you.
- I know you can't. That's why I wanna kill myself everytime I think you are lying. I'm such a pathetic looser."
"*sobs*
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've ever doubted you. I'm sorry. I really... really believe you now.
- I forgive you. You don't have to apologize."
"- I have cut my arm.
- Why did you do it? You are not supossed to be hurt! If a single part of your body, a single hair, is injured, it is like I'm wounded too.
- I was weak... I'm sorry.
- Promise me you will never do this again.
- What?
- Promise me you will never cut yourself again. Injure yourself. I will look after you tomorrow. Promise me.
- I-I-I can't. I'm weak. Sometimes I will do this.
- I promised you. Please. I'm begging you.
- Don't beg...
- Please... Please...
- *deep breath* Ok. I promise.
- Thank you. God, now I know how you feel. I'm never going to make you have to pass trough this again.
- You almost killed the most precious thing in the world to me. That's why I got desperate.
- I'm sorry I ever tried to do it.
- It's all well now. Don't worry. It's in the past."
"I can't imagine my life without you. My year without you... Everything."
"- I'm sorry again for doubting. I'm sorry... I should never had...
- It's all ok now. Don't worry. It's in the past."
"- Thank you.
- For what?
- For forgiving me.
- I believe a person should only forgive if she really forgives. So, you don't have to thank me.
- But that's exactly why I thank you. I'm never doubting your word again.
- Never is a ver long time.
- No, it isn't. I swear. I believe in you. I really do."
"- Don't worry. I will never cut myself again. I promised. I'm tired. Now, I'm calm. I'm at peace. I have to sleep. I love you.
- I love you so much.
- Thank you. For everything.
- You don't have to thank me.
- Dream about me.
- You too.
- Bye.
- Bye."
"Watashi wa... Killer-chan... Daisuki."
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