Funny how movies make me think about reality more than reality itself. I buried myself in work, geekiness and the comfort of books for the last few weeks. Cinema came and took my sense of safety and fulfillment away.

One movie I watched during the whole Festival. Why did it have to be one of the movies I most identified myself with that I've seen in a long time? Why did it have to be so bloody sad?

I'm just mad at myself that I'm feeling fucking lonely right now. I really, really need to learn to be more self-sufficient.

ETA: Twenty years of democracy today! Our longest period of time without dictatorial governments yet. It's rather sad, really. We have a long, long way to go before Brazil is a real democracy.

Dear readers,

Please do not take in consideration last night's post. I really shouldn't be allowed near a computer when I'm feeling weird.

Thank you for your attention,

Crazy Person.

On a totally unrelated note: last night, my faith in Rio was restored. I could swear that the Bible-thumping candidate was going to win the elections, and that I would eventually have to move because the police would start beating up the gays. On an expected turn of events, an ex-"terrorist" who fought against the dictatorship managed to get more votes than him.

Viva Gabeira! Espero que ele ganhe no segundo turno, apesar de eu saber que as chances são poucas. Mesmo que o Paes ganhe, só a noção que o Crivella não estará na jogada já faz com que eu me sinta muito melhor.

Aliás, alguém viu que o Democratas ganhou mais votos do que qualquer outro partido na Câmara? Fiquei intrigada com isso. Pelo menos a Andrea Gouvea garantiu o lugar dela lá. Eu estava com um pouco de peso na consciência de votar nela sem ter certeza de quais eram os projetos de lei que ela havia proposto, ia propôr, e os objetivos dela. Fiquei muito feliz quando o site dela voltou ao ar hoje e eu vi que ela é uma das poucas pessoas sãs que apoia a licitação pra transporte público nessa cidade.

O Rio de Janeiro continua lindo.

PS: christycorr corrected me and said our longest democratic period was between 1891 and 1930. I can't say she's wrong, but I should add that the country was more like an oligarchy back then than anything. I mean, nobody really voted, just the rich white guys. But, still, fair enough. I stand corrected. I'll celebrate democracy again in twenty years.